To move on is..
OMG! It's been sooo long since my last post! Like I've said before, my story has come to the part where I have to tell you about ileocolostomy, which was the worst moment of all. I find myself just can't do it.. I still can't put myself to memorize those moments again and write about it.
For a little update, I'm still not pregnant yet. As the side effect of 2 times laparotomy, my fallopian tubes are blocked - both of them, yes. So.. it's pretty much a dead end for me. Unless I'm up for a laparoscopy to fix the blockage or IVF.. whichever I choose, I don't have the money for now.
To make matter worse, I suspect that the endo is back. These past 3 periods, I feel secondary dysmenorrhea - a sore right waist - from day 2 to about day 14 or even almost day 20! So I've only got apprx. one week pain-free.
How do I deal with this? I literally don't know. Just live a day.. Or maybe, I'm running away.. I don't know.. Completely clueless..
But I'm still here in blogosphere, I'm quite active in my other blog Living Daisy, in case you want to have a little chat about endometriosis.. Until then, stay healthy ;)
